Tonight I’m cooking parsnip soup for dinner, and spending time with Trout. While the parsnips are roasting I thought I’d put together a little update for you all.
Thank you so much for your tweets and comments, they really do mean a lot to me. So many people reached out say how moved they were, or that they had been through the same loss. If you have a relative that’s in the early stages of alzheimers, all I can really say is to cherish these moments, even if it is incredibly hard. I remember the frustration, sadness and even at times anger towards my Grandma. I know how terrible that sounds, but if you’ve been through the same thing I’m sure you can understand what I mean. You know that you have to agree with whatever they are saying – up until the point that they are in danger of harming themselves, or believing something that just isn’t true – but that’s sometimes easier said than done. Cherish the moments where they are themselves, take all of the knowledge and wisdom that you can, and don’t look forward to the fast-approaching future. It’s impossible to swallow the awful realisation that this is a one-way street, the tunnel behind you is closed, so with that in mind capture every single memory together that you can.
Thinking about my Grandad makes me incredibly sad, and brings tears to my eyes whenever I think about it. Although he has lived alone now for a few years, I cannot grasp the reality of it all. My Grandma and Grandad became a couple around the same age that Trout and I became a couple. They lived in their home in Ealing together for over half a century, and I cannot comprehend the reality of his loss. It’s so hard to imagine my grandparents being my age, in the same way that I can’t imagine myself at my grandparents age!
Moving on, I have a number of drafted blog posts ready to go, and I’m working on a really exciting project with Alpro which I’ll be sharing with you all here on the blog, and on social media, so keep an eye out for those.
Thanks again to everyone that got in touch x